Below you will find a comment I posted on Swistle's Blog in response to her latest entry regarding buttery & delicious pecan rolls made for her by her mother:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
I am running in circles ripping my hair out as my "diet" has gone south in the last few weeks and what clothing used to be loose is now tight again and all I want to do is eat and now there are delicious pecan rolls sent straight from the devil himself to taunt me.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
Sigh.
I am really having a rough time staying on the wagon these last 3 weeks. First: I ate because I was stressed about my boards. Second: I ate because I was nervous about what the results of my boards would be. Third: I ate because I was celebrating the passing of my boards. Now: I am stuck in the cycle of bad eating habits. I was JUST getting to the point where I wasn't having night sweats and withdrawal symptoms from my sugar cutbacks. DAMN IT! The positive: I continue with yoga 4-5 times per week and get at least one day of cardio in. I hope to increase my cardio..but I am also starting a wild and crazy new work schedule so, I'll give myself some time to adjust.
So there you go. An update. Painfully & obviously absent? A weigh in. Don't expect one until the Monday, March 24th. So there. Hmmph.
6 comments:
i just dropped by to see how you're doing. Congrats on your new pseudo-nephew! He looks healthy and happy. I'm glad for that, and for Sam.
Spring is peeking out around the corner and warmer weather means more activity. You're doing great. Slow and steady wins the race.
Take care,
jenn
I am in the same boat! I had several excellent reasons to stress-eat, and then there was the Barf Recovery and the pecan rolls, and now I have PMS and so obviously I need something like brownies with extra salt. And then we have a birthday party this weekend, and it would be rude not to eat cake. And then it's Easter, and that's my day to eat whatever I want---which has lost some of it's gloss since I'm DOING THAT ANYWAY.
I mean "its gloss."
swistle-
Man. We just can't catch a break! And I TOTALLY forgot about the upcoming Easter gorge. I haven't been at the grocery store very much in the last few weeks....so I've missed out on the Easter extravaganza. Maybe I should just *visit* the candy at the store.....
Don't be so hard on yourself! I always remind myself that my thing with food and weight is a lifelong thing. So then I don't think of it as a struggle. Just like yoga, there is no end result, no final goal to reach, but a sweet journey with discovery, failures, and triumphs.
The most important thing is to love yourself no matter which you are experiencing. Sorry for sounding like a new age book. Jeez.
You are still on your path, lovely lady!
Joy-
You're totally right. And I appreciate your new age advice because it hits me right in the heart...I think it's a good idea to relate my journey towards health with my yoga journey. Sigh. Sometimes I just want a six pack and all this work to be over with. But I KNOW, I KNOW...."it's the journey, not the destination".
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